I'm so frustrated right now.

WWoftheWest27 (11:57:22 PM): FUCKIN GIRLS DUDE.
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:03:49 AM): go on..
WWoftheWest27 (12:00:43 AM): I dunno, dude. they fuck with....they fuck with everytghing.
WWoftheWest27 (12:00:55 AM): I'm getting really sick of calling situations and then having them be right as I predicted.
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:04:27 AM): lol
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:04:33 AM): ok so what happend between u to
WWoftheWest27 (12:01:13 AM): just once I'd like shit to turn out differently then I expected. Maybe i need to just stop reading people correctly lol
WWoftheWest27 (12:01:21 AM): Cassi is driving me....insane.
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:05:12 AM): whos casi
WWoftheWest27 (12:02:11 AM): She won't stand up for herself, and over the past week her mom tried to kick her out--she told her that she would either have to "change her direction or leave" and it's just (the chick we were talking about in QP the other day) like...she won't stand up for herself.
WWoftheWest27 (12:02:32 AM): she's being totally dependant on her family. she has money, she has a car, the only thing she doesn't have is school funding, and her voice can get her anywhere she needs to go and she won't do it.
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:06:40 AM): who iss she
WWoftheWest27 (12:03:49 AM): And I told her! ;aoiwuerlja;ksdjf;. I was like, dude, the only reason we aren't dating and the only reason you won't be open and the only goddamn reason that I don't ask you out is becuase of your fucking parents! and she was just like, blah blah I don't think they're that bad, blah blah, and then this week she's like I want to move out but I odn't want to leave on a bad note (i'll explain in a minute)
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:07:34 AM): u didnt tell me her name!
WWoftheWest27 (12:05:05 AM): and so I was like, dude, it comes to a point where you have to decide. Are you going to live your life for you or for your parents/ Because frankly, the fact that you want(Cassi. is her name.) to do things and you want to be independant, and you talk about it all the time but never follow through with your talk, it's driving me nuts.
WWoftheWest27 (12:05:16 AM): you have to decide to either live your life settling for things you dont' really want, or just fucking do it.
WWoftheWest27 (12:05:33 AM): and I'm just...like...I won't date her if she's not goign to stick up for herself.
WWoftheWest27 (12:05:59 AM): No matter how much I want to, or she wants to, it's not happening. Because I need someone who will respect themselves as much as I respect them, otherwise it's shit.
WWoftheWest27 (12:06:10 AM): and it's jsut...I'm really disappointed. I thought she had more in her than she does.
WWoftheWest27 (12:06:12 AM): or is showing.
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:09:39 AM): i dont blame u
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:09:45 AM): but u cant like
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:09:47 AM): change her
WWoftheWest27 (12:06:30 AM): no, I wouldn't want to!
WWoftheWest27 (12:06:34 AM): she's amazing the way she is.
WWoftheWest27 (12:06:38 AM): but she just....
WWoftheWest27 (12:06:48 AM): I just wish that she would stick up for herself for once in her life.
WWoftheWest27 (12:06:58 AM): She's 19 and has a midnight curfew.
WWoftheWest27 (12:07:11 AM): and she won't say anything to her parents about it.
WWoftheWest27 (12:07:50 AM): I wouldn't want to change her, and I wouldn't ask her to change, I wouldn't do anything like that. I just am disappointed because I won't date her if she's not going to stick up for herself, because I won't know if she will tell me if I'm doing something that she's not comfortable with or not.
WWoftheWest27 (12:08:09 AM): if she won't even tell her sister or her parents or her best friend, I'm not sure what she's going to tell me if I were her girlfriend.
WWoftheWest27 (12:08:59 AM): and I've been fucked over enough that that's not an option. I'm more than willing to support her as a friend in her being really....walking on eggs with her parents, but I can't date her and do that because I will be like, I want to shout you to the world and I can't do that, so I'm getting really contained with this.
WWoftheWest27 (12:09:16 AM): and feeling contained in a relationship as opposed to free...that's just shit.
WWoftheWest27 (12:10:02 AM): if I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her, right this second, maybe it would be different. but I don't. maybe that would develope, maybe not. but I just....GAH.
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:13:38 AM): dude ur making total sense
SHADOWSNLIFE (12:13:40 AM): r u ok though
WWoftheWest27 (12:11:03 AM): I'm fine, I'm just really frustrated. Like, I kissed her and we cuddled all night, and we kept talking and it was just....I didn't say it, but I was going this feels right. THis could happen. But I will not get involved in this situation if you aren't willing to back yourself up.
WWoftheWest27 (12:11:14 AM): I'm always there if you fall, but falling has to be your last resort, not your first.
WWoftheWest27 (12:11:30 AM): otherwise growth and strength really just....they just don't happen.
WWoftheWest27 (12:11:57 AM): and I know she won't back herself up--I've known her since I was twelve. so....
WWoftheWest27 (12:11:58 AM): like....
WWoftheWest27 (12:12:06 AM): it's really frustrating. because I called this. grrrrr.

Yeah. Basically, I'm tired of games.
I don't like them.
and if you aren't going to stick up for yourself....
dude.
who the fuck do you have?
obviously not yourself.
and if you don't have yourself...
does anyone else matter that you might have?

From my experience...not so much.


But I'm at the point with it where I'm just like, fine. You know what? You aren't the only option. so if you want to do this, go ahead and do this. I am independant, I am self sufficent, and apparently I have a bunch of other girls who want to date me.

so fuck it.
I don't need my heart and my mind to be fucked with, I've been over that since I was fourteen.

Fucking girls.
Why can't I like boys?
At least then when a guy fucks me over I could go complain about it to anyone.
as opposed to right now.
Where I just get labled a lesbian whore. because everyone knows all lesbians are oversexed, right?
whatever.

My walls go back up now. It's kind of annoying.

For those who knew him, Jake Rosenfield proved himself to be a real human being with a great future and a immesurable sense of adventure and potential to be the amazing person he was destined to be.

Unfortunently, this past monday he passed away.

To say we were close would be a lie, but I hung out with him enough to be able to see the light that he had on the inside--I wish that he was able to see that light as well. If he could hear the stories, the love, and the greif outpouring from his friends, me included, I think he would be crying just as much as the rest of us are.

He was an amazing person, and he will be severly missed. He had such a light and a great sense of fun, and he spread that sense to all who knew him.

RIP Jake--you changed peoples lives.

H.

This doesn't connect.
Emma, Chelsea...Hockinson graduating class. Earlier this year. Crissy, a few months ago. and now Jake.

What. the hell. high school students are not allowed to die.

I'm not one for pretending like dead people were angels. You know what, he had problems. He was an asshole a lot of the time I knew him--but he still had a light and he still had an adventure in him, and this should not have happened.

No one is seen as a good person by everyone, but honestly, he was a good person. If he could see how much love is pouring out for him, he would take it back I think.

This should not have happened.
It doesn't connect, it doesn't work in my head.

A friend of mine, between his junior and senior years, killed himself.

...what?
I'm in shock, I don't understand, I don't want to understand.

I'm strong, I'm independant, and I'm going to pull further and further into myself. I know this from past experience.

you know what?
I wish I didn't know already.

I wish I didn't have to know now.

and I wish that no one else would have to know now either.

Who says wishes come true.
Where is the justice in this?

Fuck it.

Come come come come come!
There's another show at two pm which is free, but the seven o clock on is for charity.
for both of them show up earlyish for seats, the show runs about two hours and fifteen minutes, totally worth it, come come come! please. :)

GAAAAAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alright.

I was staying out of this. I was not going to get into this. But this has gone too far.

When you try and justify a little boy's death because he lived with his mother, who's a lesbian, his uncle came over to visit, who's gay, and his father left him, because the man is a tramp...that's going too far.

I was fine. I really was. I thought it was fucking ridiculous, but at the same time I don't really give a shit about what you say about me--say you think I'm living my life wrong, that's fine. Whatever. But the woman attacked my friend, she attacked me, she attacked a lot of my friends, she attacked part of my core self, and then she stepped back and watched all hell break loose. She sat there and spewed bible verses at everyone, as if that were justification for her judgmental bigoted state. She watched while everyone descended on the bait she had just thrown out there. And then, just to prove how mature she was, she called out my friend in front of everyone for having an opinion. She said she was angry that he "used my address book to force your views upon others."

....if you send out a mass e-mail that ignites fires and don't expect it to be replied to to EVERYONE, who the fuck do you think you are?! Do you really expect something this volital to not be discussed?

And it's past discussing now. I can't even believe how pissed off about this I'm getting. I don't even think it's the debate--I've heard it all before. But justifying a small child's death because some of the adults in his life are queer....that doesn't....you don't do that. Nothing justifys a child's death. Especially not something like homosexuality. That's fucking ridiculous.

Highlights of what I woke up to this morning?

"In church, i was tought to show love. To be a christian firts hand. By showing love, people will feel love. They will see what is improtant. So as Christians in todays society, are we going to show love by beating down the rights of other. That one mother who cant go into the hospital room to see her child of 3 years because the papers are under her lovers name. That mother cannot go and pray over her childs head. She cannot help the fact that she wants to be there for her daughter, but is made to wait in the waiting room... or go home. Is that what we want the world to stay at? Why choose hate when we all can choose love!

Support love!

In GOD we trust

...not ourselves. "

I fucking love you, A.

""The bible contains much. One is to love thy neighbor as they love thyself. Another speaks condemningly of homosexuality. If you look at those two messages and think that the latter is the more important, then you are disagreeing with the MOST important message. I looked at the web page for the petition and found this

"ENDA is even more threatening to our Christian beliefs because it could require faith-based nonprofit organizations such as Focus Action to hire homosexuals or others who are hostile to our deeply held religious beliefs. "

This webpage has just labeled homosexuals as hostile to the deeply held religious beliefs. The petition is claiming that this legislation is Threatening.

I just visited the Ku Klux Klan website and found this:

"Bringing a message of hope and deliverance to White Christian America! A Message of Love NOT Hate!"

Or how about this one found on Aryan nations, a Neo-Nazi site

"It's not a matter of white supremacy; it's a matter of racial purity. Our motto ... Violence solves everything!"""
.. THE POST -->

Hmmm. hmmm. hmmm.

"Love is not found in the banning of homosexuals. The KKK and the Aryan Nations seem outrageous! They think that the earth should be cleansed to produce an all white Christian population. This racism seems so absurd. We know that blacks, Mexicans, Chinese, you name it deserve the same treatment. Yet, why do homosexuals deserve any lesser treatment? How can you call racism outrageous and then turn around and have homosexual prejudices? Should they be rounded up and thrown in concentration camps?

You may say that God condemns homosexuals in the bible...And I say to you, look at all of the thing's in the bible. There are countless statements that contradict. There may be a handful of verses on sexuality, but thousands more on the importance of love, service, and equality to all."

See. not all of it was bad. this one actually made me laugh a little bit.

"...you need to understand that when Christians take a stand against the homosexual lifestyle it is because we love them and don't want to see anyone go to hell. If we didn't love them as God has commanded us to do with all men, then we would just let them do whatever they wanted not carring about their salvation. But then letting them do whatever they want inflicts their deviant perverse lifestyle into ours and we are initiating our rights to sheild ourselves through working at keeping our rights granted to us through the Bill of Rights when this great nation we are so blessed to live in was founded and based through Christian values. Homosexuals are trying very hard to shove their deviant and perverse lifestyle down our throats in a very hateful manner and yet we Christians are being condemned as unloving when we only want to stay true to our faith in God. You totally misunderstand what love is. Love doesn't want someone they care a bout to go into an ungodly lifestyle and end up in hell for eternity. Yes, I sin. But because I love God and because His Son Jesus is my Savior, God's Holy Spirit lives within me and when I make a wrong choice that is sin according to God's Word, His Holy Spirit convicts my heart and I feel such a sorrowful sence of being wrong and I ask God for help and mercy and forgiveness. I do not tell Him He is wrong and He is just going to have to love me the way I am in that sin and go on doing it and that is what homosexuals say to God by insisting that how they are living their life is not wrong and that there is no way that God is going to send them to hell because it is no different then lieing to a parent, or cheating on a spouse or robbing a bank. What makes this statement of the homosexual community a lie is that they are refusing to accept the responsibilty of their own choice to enter into what God calls a deviant and perverse lifestyle and they are militant in their attitude and they are unrepentent in their spirit. You and I battled over this issue in a private manner two years ago and you know that is why our friendship had to end. I am not giving in to you on this subject because of love not anger or bitterness. Jon, you need to immerse yourself in God's Holy Word and sincerely ask Him to reveal your heart because you are wrong and you are waging a war against God and you are trying to drag others into this lie with you. Scriptures for you to take a good look at are Leviticus 18:22 which says do not live with a man as one lives with a woman. Genesis 19:4- the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah over homosexual perversion. 1st John 3:9 describing how Christians have not condemned, God already did. All of the book of Romans showing that God is the judge. Deut 22: 5 discusses transvestites, Exodus 20:14 homosexuality violates the 7th commandment, 1 Timothy 1:9-10 discusses how the law was made for the rebelious and the lawless; for immoral men and homosexuals, etc.
Jon, God wants us to love others as ourselves, but He does not want us to approve of their lifestyle, unrepentent lifestyle or to get invloved with their lifestyle. Many things are not forbidden in God's Word, but the unrepentent homosexual lifestyle is forbidden by God and will be judged by Him alone. Every passage in the Bible, God's Holy inerrant Word, makes it completely clear that this lifestyle choice is sinful and unacceptable to Him and He is God, completely loving and merciful and forgiving when His Way is acknowledged by us and we repent and turn away from any wrong choice that we make. Christians cannot approve of something evil that God has said He condemns and is forbidden for Christians to pursue. So, as Christians we unite in this truth and we stand on it and we pray for those who are blinded to God's truth. That is LOVE!!! So, yes I will always love you. But because of your wrong choice of how y ou see God's Word I cannot hang with you. This is what I thought you understood from our conversation 2 years ago. Yes I hurt. Loosing what I thought was friendship, hurt big time. God has helped me in many ways to get beyond the pain of going through this struggle. And I pray always for you to truly see His love for you. And I had to do this in a public way because you used my address book to forward your angry and deceitful response. I am upset that you would push your views on my friends, some who are so young. It was wrong. It was the wrong choice. ""

Barghfatzbaleit? I...I mean, I'm sorry, what? You didn't just quote literally pages of the bible at me, did you? I...oh...my...god.

This one though...this was killer:

"""I want to respond to all the emails.
I started writing this long email to everyone and I realized. This is the beginning of what you all will be facing for the rest of your lives, me too. We will be called to speak up in front of people for what we believe in. Welcome to being set apart. I am sad for the things you see now adays, but then I am honestly excited to see how God is speaking into your lives. He loves you guys so much and I know the holy spirit will guide you to answers that you have questions for. Wrestle with Him on these issues.
Since I am writing I feel I do have to say the bible is so clear on it's stance against homosexual lifestyles. Know the truth because I do believe these are the days where the truth will be setting people free. I had the experience of going to to a funeral a week ago of a 13 year old boy who was hit by a car. His mom and dad divorced when he was 3 or 4. He at the end of his life was being raised by two women. His mom chose a homosexual lifestyle. His dad chose a you could call it a sleep around lifestyle. Also this little boy spent a lot of time with his uncle who has a gay partner. Picture this young boy being led by these three "adults." Does that even sound okay?
I want to pray for you guys who ever is reading this... As I look down the list of names I almost hate that you guys have to see this email.
I honestly suggest that you talk with your mom or dad or both about this issue. Especially you younger ones
Lord I pray these kids (some adults) go to you on these issues. I pray that they seek your word and you guide them into all truth. I wonder Lord what your heart is saying about America and it's ways especially regarding homosexuality? What are we truly crying out for Lord? Speak to these kids and make them bold to stand on your word. Keep them in your care and protect them from things you don't want them to get into.
In Jesus name
amen

Love you guys
beka"""

.................*shocked open mouthed silence*
I....
Can't even believe that that just happened. I honestly can't.
Oh. My. God.

Alright. I---I'm so....

GAH.

GAAAAAH.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

maybe i'm not the steriotypical church-going hymn-singing bible-thumping christian that I apparently have to be to be any good at life at all in some peoples eyes, but I am spiritual, I have faith, and you know what? I used to be the preacher's daughter. Back in texas, yes I was believe it or not. I was best friends with the pastor's family and spent all my time at his house, was involved in every church thing you could think of, plus my dad ran a native american church, and plus i was just really really into God.

And then I moved away from my one-mile island and found out that there was a lot more hate in the Christian world than I had experienced in texas, (mainly because no one in the church family knew my life outside of church, but whatever), and while those bigoted people weren't even close to the majoirty, there were enough of them that it made in really not enjoyable to go to church anymore. However, while maybe I don't consider myself a conventional christian, or really very organized-religious at all, I still have belief in a higher power, (call it what you'd like), and I have faith, and there is nothing that justifies a third party coming in and judging, quoting bible verses (or pages as the case may be) at me, and saying that I, or my friends, do not know how to love, are bad people because of what we believe, and are attempting to take rights of "Christians" away by....by what...having opinions? stating them?

Exisiting?

Because that's where this is at.
I am a threat to your good-christian lifestyle because I exist.
I deserve hate.
I deserve to be cut off from a religious setting.
I deserve to be sent to hell because of the "choice" I've "made".
I deserve to die.
I deserve everything you've stated and more.
And what's more than that...
I deserve your judgemental, bigoted, opressive opinions forced on my head...
Because the bible says so?
Or is that just what you're using as justification?

Have your opinions, that's fine with me.
But don't tell me who I can or can't be.
Don't tell me that who I am is justification for a child's death.
Don't tell me that you're right, and I'm wrong, and that's all there is to it.
There's a world out there that you won't ever see, because you won't open your mind enough to experience it.
I feel sorry for you, I feel sorry for the name you're giving yourself, and I feel sorry for the fact that you're personifying a higher power in a way that cuts off at least one in ten people.

Do you know how many people you've just comdemned?
Do you know more than ten people?
Chances are, you know someone gay.
Think about it.
I don't care what you believe--but right now, of the two of us, you're "forcing your lifestyle" upon me much more than I am upon you.

and it's wrong.
it's the wrong choice.

H.

          Today is an important day. 11 years ago today a Genius died alone in his kitchen making tea.

It was the opening night of RENT before it moved to Broadway, before it was even a twinkle in History's eye.

It wasn't what should have happened. He should still be with us today; he had so much more to write and so much more to give to this world. He was a Genius.

But he went. And left behind a life-changing Legacy; RENT.

(And Tick...Tick...BOOM! too)

So here. We raise our glass, you bet your ass to LA VIE BOEHEME!!!!!

Thank you, Jonathan Larson.
You will live forever.

Please, and I'm being serious, just take a moment today and do random acts of RENT. Just sing or dance or scream LA VIE BOEHEME at someone on the street! RENT will live forever, no doubt about it. Share some of the legacy today, in honor of it's creator!!

Frankly, I somehow doubt A Moment Of Silence would be appreciated by him. I'm sure he'd rather there be alcohol and dancing and a celebration of Life.


DO IT. :D

I wrote that this morning at like, 2:30. It was just a bulletin and I got a lot of responses on it and I want to thank everyone who did respond, because…I don’t know. I’m insecure about my writing like that and besides, Jonathan deserves responses. But while I was writing it I knew that when I was conscious I was going to be writing a blog as well, because of how RENT affected my life, (and I just write blogs lol).

I don’t really know how to start it, but I’m just going to start and see what comes out of my brain to my fingers.

RENT. I know a lot of people are really prejudiced against it because of its content; it scares them, they feel threatened and uncomfortable, it deals with issues they’re not willing or ready to face. The fact is, RENT pops bubbles. RENT is life. RENT is reality. RENT is happening, right now, and I don’t think many people are willing to face reality. They hole themselves up in their two car garage and watch American Idol, Desperate Housewives, LOST, and Gray’s Anatomy and enjoy the fact that their reality is being created for them; they don’t have to do any of the work.

But what kind of existence is that? I mean, if you’re just going to be sitting there, staring at a box all the time, you’re never going to get…I mean…I just don’t understand how people can so comfortably turn a blind eye to the fact that they are wasting their own lives and not even feel unsettled at all.

That’s what scares me.

I admit that a lot of people aren’t like that; a lot of RENT-opposers are just personally against the content, and well…I don’t know how you manage to ignore and hate reality like that, (I mean, AIDS, homosexuality…you do know more than ten people, don’t you? Lord.) but I concede their right to do so. They at least don’t just sit there and stare at a flickering screen all day. But I still find it extremely sad that they don’t even want to give it a chance.

If you give something a chance, you yourself have a chance at understanding it. And when you understand something, you can change it.

Although knowing those stupid people once they understood that homosexuality was here and queer, they wouldn’t get over, they’d go all gung ho on getting people back on the straight and narrow. Which would make me laugh. However, that’s immaterial.

The point is that to ignore or break the rules, you have to know what they are first. To protest something, you have to know what you’re protesting. And a lot of people have no flying squirrel’s ass in the wind idea of what they’re protesting! I’ve been asking people all day. “Do you like RENT?” and those who say no, I promptly ask why.

The most unoriginal and most common response is, because it’s bad.

What the hell? That’s not even a reason. That’s a…parrot. It’s a parrot of what their parents told them, or what their church told them, or what their grandparents told them, or what their friends told them. It’s not original thought. It’s not even in the same zip code as original thought, and it’s not even a fucking REASON!!!

If you’re going to give me a reason like that, at least tell the truth. At least say, my parents told me it’s bad. Or it’s against my religious principles to watch it. Whatever. But give me a valid reason. ‘just ‘cause’ isn’t good enough.

You may not want to face it. You may not like it. But look, damnit. There’s a world around you. I don’t know how you can disregard that.

….okay. back from RANT to RENT.

RENT isn’t afraid to deal with actual reality. (act up! Fight AIDS! Sorry, couldn’t pass it up.) Jonathan Larson wrote about his life. RENT isn’t only the world around us, it’s life, and it’s Jonathan Larson.

One Song Glory, especially, I think. It just strikes me as the core of what he was trying to do. Get people to look and see and remember and feel and think and love, because you know what? Everyone dies. The point isn’t that you’re going to die, the point is that you’re living now. Everyone wants to be remembered; how many people achieve that?

Jonathan did.

Not many people are remembered by how they died, but by how they lived.

The phrase, No Day But Today, is such a strong…no. there’s no other way to put it. No day but today is what it is. Take it at face value, and live by it. Never pass up an opportunity, I really don’t care what it is. If you have a chance, take it. Because life is being lived now; not tomorrow, not yesterday…don’t think about what you did or what you’re going to do. Just do it.

And never forget to tell a loved one that they are loved. Please. I should know.

So. Today is the eleventh anniversary of the opening night of RENT and Jonathan Larson’s death.

What does this mean to you?

To me it means today is a severe party day and I am going to be blasting RENT all the way home. And Tick…Tick…Boom! Too. (If you haven’t heard TTB!, LISTEN TO IT NOW!!!! It’s hilarious. And amazing.) Watching the movie, writing blogs, talking to friends, and tonight I’m going out to dinner. I’m going to drag a whole bunch of people, if I can get them together, and we’re going to the Stardust Diner and we’re going to be loud and obnoxious and randomly sing songs. Call me if you want to go!! Or message me and I’ll send you my number.

But my point is, there really is No day but today. Just go live love and laugh and tell everything that’s not really important surrounding you to shut the fuck up! At least for today.

LA VIE BOHEME.

And Thank you, Jonathan Larson.

You changed the way I view the world, the way I view myself, the way I view my friends, and the way I view Life.

You could never imagine how much you affected me.

And don’t worry; I won’t give up on Dad. He’ll come around sometime; he’s got to. Yeah, I’ve been forbidden to sing, quote, or talk about RENT around him. My music has to be turned down soft enough that he can’t hear it. But I’m very bad at taking directions when I want to be. And he can’t ignore it forever.

I refuse to be ignored.

So. Here’s to me! And you…and you and you and you you and you!

Okay so right now I’m going, TO THE STAGE! As well. But you know. Whatever works out for ya. J

No day but today.

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Heather

Aka Maureen

Hey Everybody! So I'm just doing a quickie blog post right now, just because I don't have time to make a huge long one. 

HAPPY FREAKING NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

This past year, 2006...wow. It's been such a year. Hard, happy, joyful, frustrating, life-changing, confusing, laughter-filled, fun, tearful, and most of all filled with growth. And do you know what? I'm MORE than ready for 2006 to be GONE!! Hello to the new year, may it sparkle and freaking shine!! 

This new year is going to inspain. I can't even wait for all the crazy times to start happening! And here's a toast to certain things that happened in '06 not happening '07, and certain things that didn't happen, happening. Life's a bitch sometimes, but she can also be the pimp, and this past year has def. bitched and pimped its way right up to the end! 

So. I was sitting there thinking the other night and I realized something---If you want a lasting rainbow, you have to paint it yourself.

Here's to the journey from becoming the woman I can be from the child I used to be. 

and here's to you--wherever you are, whatever comes your way--if you're handed it, you can handle it. (yeah. got that from shoshana bean lol)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Heather

Have a wonderful bountiful Christmas day!!!

:) 

I"m just going to use this post to say this to everybody!!!

(Dec. 1) World AIDs day
Happy/Merry Christmas
Happy Solstice
Happy Hanukkah, even though it already passed. *sigh* I hate taking down the menorah... (Channukah, Chanukah, Hannukah, Hanukah, etc. However you personally spell it!)
Happy Kwanzaa
St. Nicholas Day
Pearl Harbor Day
Happy Boxing day!
Happy Lurlinemas!!

There are many others, I know. So whatever you celebrate, whatever you believe, here's hoping it's absolutely amazing for you!!!!!!!
xoxoxoxo
Heather
ps. weird thing about last year; first day of Hanukkah was Dec. 25th...oh the confusion of our family!! It was like one giant present day, and then seven other little present days!!! Good times. :)

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Yes, this journal is indeed friends only, but trust me, comment to be added. It's worth it, if you like sassy, verging on bitchy attitudes, broadway, I-don't-care-what-you-think posts, dancing, theatre, life, love, laughter, the pursuit of happiness, and originality! If you read my userinfo it explains my rules and tells a little bit about lil'ol glorious me! Basically my rule is no drama, because it's pointless, and don't go all emo on me or start being a hater and discriminator. If you were like that already, I won't friend you.

My old journal, princessmandys, is now only for my icons, (I take text requests, btw!).

My name is Heather, (but my stage name is Heather) I'm old enough to shine onstage, shine offstage, and generally be myself. me. a pain in the ass sometimes, but at least I rock. I'm just saying....okay! so. There we go! Comment and tell me why you rock and we'll see where the relationship goes!

Light and Love to all!
Heather